If I...
Don't tell me to calm down
This is the way I feel everything is going so if I
Jump will someone...
so confused so many things that I want to do.
The wrong things the fun things they no longer crowd my brain.
Only the right things. I use to say he didn't talk to me but I hear him clearly.
Catch me and if they do...
So now it's just me and him raw and natural.
Speaking to him no walls or barriers.
No more wondering.
If this is what I wanted then why does it scare me.
What will they be like, do you think...
Making everyone go around in circles because it feels impossible.
They're trying to keep me up, but they have no idea where I'm going.
Don't follow me man.
They'll accept me or understand how I'm broken into pieces...
You say that it's worth it?
Am I the worth it one?
Is there a future here?
Am I the one you see yourself spending the rest of life with?
I actually am.
So I jump...
I want to be that person, but not like this.
Fickle questioning every decision that I make.
One day sure and the next unsure.
Up and down.
We all say that we wish you understood that you were different.
We just want someone to understand the confusion.
Someone who doesn't seem so perfect.
And I swim and swim and never stop...
I keep going.
I have all this energy.
I still don't know what I'm doing most of the time.
Just one experiment after the next.
He's always there.
Always telling me to keep trying and I say okay.
I keep going.
I'm so happy I jumped.
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